I wound myself in a tight little ball Tucked away in a corner against the wall  Folded in on myself I feel so small I see my chest rise and feel the tears fall.  I’ve sunk so far and did it again I’ve taken the razor and shredded the skin Trying to let out what … Continue reading Trying to Hide

Sometimes I get so caught up in my mind and with all the shit I have going on that I forget you have your own shit you’re dealing with too. And I’m so sorry. Believe me, I know everyone goes through their own winter at different times and some winters are harder than others. Some … Continue reading Winter’s Storm

I had someone tell me to remember “they are just words, they can’t hurt you.” And I know that.  And I related that to another friend as I was explaining my predicament.  And after a few moments, she said, “yeah, it is just words, but have you met yourself? Words are your soul. Of course … Continue reading Words

I don’t know where this will end up taking me. Just wanted to write a few thoughts down and see what becomes of it, if anything.  I’ve been quiet lately. Doing a lot of introspection and thinking about plans and goals… I’m trying to figure out how to do what needs to be done.  Here’s … Continue reading The Cliff

I do not believe for one second that suffering at the hand of another is directly related to a past sin we committed. The other day, one of my friends asked me why some people are made to suffer, in a relationship for example, while others seem to have such a pleasant life, happily married … Continue reading Suffering

Satan is the author of confusion.  JESUS is the Prince of Peace.  Where there is peace, there is the LORD.  Where there is strife, there is the devil.  I have found peace in what I hope to believe is the way I am meant to go; but of late, I have started questioning which path … Continue reading Confusion

October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. I am 1 in 4...not a day goes by that I do not think of the heartbeat that stopped all too soon. I mourn for the loss of smiles and laughter, the loss of hopes and dreams. A piece of me died that day... I thought about … Continue reading Jedidiah

On my way to church this morning, I felt this pressure in my chest... Today is one of those days I’d give just about anything to fall into my mom’s arms and cry on her shoulder. Not like that ever happened. Mom wasn’t the affectionate type. Neither am I. But that isn’t my point today. … Continue reading Today

“You bring me down” Is that not my biggest fear? The worst four words These ears can hear. I am worthless This I know to be true. But I had hoped You’d not know it too. I tried to be all Everything you want and need I’ve given everything I’ve lost all of me. But … Continue reading Breathe

The flip side of Gaslighting is often showering with gifts and ‘love’. This behavior further confuses the victim. It is a horrible cycle; a living nightmare. Honey, don’t make things up You know how much you mean To me and the kids Things aren’t what they seem. You are the best person I treat you … Continue reading Gaslight continued…