as I sit here contemplating my existence, I wonder if it is really real at all I feel like surely this is a dream or at least a nightmare to be called I’m disconnected from my body; my head has long since left A hollow feeling within fills this emptiness in my chest My hands … Continue reading Thinking Out Loud (to Myself)

“Life is too short to hold grudges.” I believe it was Gilbert Blythe (Anne of Green Gables- LM Montgomery) who said that. Life is fleeting.  I talk often about time, how it doesn’t really exist but is a tool to to help organize life.  We’re not promised a set amount of time.  I personally feel … Continue reading One Less Moment

Sometimes the dancing flame shows us what we don’t want to see. There is just enough light to illuminate what is right in front of us: shifting shadows and false security. Sitting in the candlelight  Watching how it glows bright How the wind blows right And shifts the way it throws light Showing how you … Continue reading Candlelight

I did it.  I said my mind and finally stood up for myself.  … I can breathe again.  Did anything change? I think so.  I’ve noticed a shift. Little things. I’m not so tense. The air is not so thick and heavy.  I can say what I want to say and I don’t worry about … Continue reading I Did It…

I wound myself in a tight little ball Tucked away in a corner against the wall  Folded in on myself I feel so small I see my chest rise and feel the tears fall.  I’ve sunk so far and did it again I’ve taken the razor and shredded the skin Trying to let out what … Continue reading Trying to Hide

Sometimes I get so caught up in my mind and with all the shit I have going on that I forget you have your own shit you’re dealing with too. And I’m so sorry. Believe me, I know everyone goes through their own winter at different times and some winters are harder than others. Some … Continue reading Winter’s Storm

I had someone tell me to remember “they are just words, they can’t hurt you.” And I know that.  And I related that to another friend as I was explaining my predicament.  And after a few moments, she said, “yeah, it is just words, but have you met yourself? Words are your soul. Of course … Continue reading Words

I don’t know where this will end up taking me. Just wanted to write a few thoughts down and see what becomes of it, if anything.  I’ve been quiet lately. Doing a lot of introspection and thinking about plans and goals… I’m trying to figure out how to do what needs to be done.  Here’s … Continue reading The Cliff

I do not believe for one second that suffering at the hand of another is directly related to a past sin we committed. The other day, one of my friends asked me why some people are made to suffer, in a relationship for example, while others seem to have such a pleasant life, happily married … Continue reading Suffering

Satan is the author of confusion.  JESUS is the Prince of Peace.  Where there is peace, there is the LORD.  Where there is strife, there is the devil.  I have found peace in what I hope to believe is the way I am meant to go; but of late, I have started questioning which path … Continue reading Confusion