We rarely let our innermost feelings seep to the surface. So much we keep private. You know how you are a world inside that no one else is privy? Guess what… We’re all like that.  Everything we show the world is an illusion. It is what we want the world to see.  But sometimes what … Continue reading Illusions

You might come from a “broken” home or one that is considered “whole”. You might be an only child, or one of many.  There’s no such thing as a perfect family.  We all have our demons and problems, but we do the best we can.  I know of families with both parents present. Model families. … Continue reading Picture Perfect Family

Stones... For stepping… Or slipping... Or building... Or stumbling… Life is the water washing over the stepping stones. Sometimes the stone is dry and sure; other times it is slippery when wet. I feel like I’m a stone for slipping.  An impediment.  An obstacle.  I feel like if you gain a little boost, watch your … Continue reading Stones

**Warning: content may be graphic. I apologize. Do I cause you so much pain that you cannot speak?  Do you hate me so much? Do you hate my flaws so much that you cannot look at me? Do you know how many times I have begged GOD to move me out of the way? Do … Continue reading Is It Me?

I was busy minding my own business and just got hit with the heaviest feeling of guilt.  From something I did over 20 years ago.  I’m talking about heart heavy... Can’t catch my breath... Stomach churning... WTF was I thinking… Paralyzing guilt.  Body shaking...  Wish the ground would swallow me whole... Don’t want to be … Continue reading Guilt

I cannot count the times I have sat down and typed out a long message in great detail.  Agonizing over word choice and punctuation.  Trying to capture the complete picture.  I want you to be able to see, hear, feel, taste and smell everything as it is.  I want you to feel my anger coursing … Continue reading Select All

The other day I was thinking about how I feel cheated.  I was listening to the conversations around me.  Listening to them laugh and act the fool; thinking how nice it must be to not have a care in the world.  Thinking how they all seem to have it all together.  How they are in … Continue reading Sigh…

It’s a struggle to fill the emptiness inside. Why can’t I ever just be satisfied?  Why do I put myself in places, then I fight to leave? I want more.  I want better.  I’m never happy.  I’m never thankful.  I sit here yelling.  I stand there pacing.  Always thinking.  Always complaining.  Never at peace.  Always … Continue reading Never Satisfied

Tone of voice is detrimental in delivery.  It can make or break relationships.  Tone can turn a statement into a question and a question to a command.  A simple phrase muttered under the breath is taken much differently than the same said outright.  A condescending tone belittles the hearer and uplifts the speaker.  Conversations turn … Continue reading Tone of Voice

Every day I go to work, I think to myself that I will not let anyone else’s actions have an effect on me and how I feel.  I usually go in to work with a decent attitude but when I open that first email, I start losing the battle.  All it takes is for one … Continue reading By Example