Sigh…

The other day I was thinking about how I feel cheated. 

I was listening to the conversations around me. 

Listening to them laugh and act the fool; thinking how nice it must be to not have a care in the world. 

Thinking how they all seem to have it all together. 

How they are in control of their own life. 

Listening to them talk about trips they’ve taken and adventures they’ve had. Things I’ll never do or even be able to do. 

How if they want something they just go get it without much thought. And that’s a WANT not a need. 

Here I am listening, thinking about the things I NEED, and trying to figure out which is most important on my list. What can I do without to be able to get the other?

And I’m listening to all this noise around me and I’m noticing how my mood is shifting. 

I started paying attention to the vibration and I realized that I dropped my frequency. 

I started comparing myself to them and that is when I started going negative. 

And I KNOW this. 

I can not compare myself to you because we are not gifted the same. 

Yeah they may seem to have no worries or problems, but I know they do. 

They’re just not currently in their problems. 

I ‘live’ in my mind. It is a dangerous place to be. I ‘live’ in my problems and dwell on them and feed them and make them grow, when in reality, they are nothing more than specks of dust. 

Because if I sit down and take five minutes to write down my worries, and maybe something I can do about them and then move on, wow, how much better would that make me feel?

I mean when something started to consume me, I should stop and write it down. 

Make a list. 

Put a star by the things I can control. 

Cross out what I can’t. (I’ll come back to this)

Number them in the order of importance. 

And plan how I will get it done. 

But five minutes is all I’m giving it. 

I need to take action and stop being anchored in my mess. 

Those worries I crossed out? I’m giving them to GOD. Those are above my pay-grade. I’ve written them down, given them to HIM, and marked them DONE.