I'm trying to learn my triggers and learn from them. I disconnect often...trying to see what is real and what never was.  Sometimes what we hold on to is an illusion of what we thought when really it wasn't that way.  We hold onto feelings that don't exist either because it is what we crave … Continue reading Acceptance

The mirror knows all, sees all and still cannot always be true. I’m so thankful for the way it turned out.  We both made mistakes. We were both hurting and wanting the same things; needing from each other what we wouldn’t give.  That’s the problem many times...we only see our hurt and pain and don’t … Continue reading Mirror, Mirror

Compassion as a noun is defined as: sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortunes of others. Sometimes I struggle with compassion.  I like to think of myself as being compassionate, but I know that I do draw a hard line at times. I cannot stand crimes against children or anyone who is innocent. … Continue reading Compassion

In truth, we have so many forks throughout life. And do you know that many of them don’t seem like forks? We often think major choices are where the life altering shifts occur, but I think it is the little things we do that have the greatest impact. I can choose to walk alone. In … Continue reading A Fork in the Road…

I wonder if the snakes curse the devil… I think it is interesting how when we are suffering with our day to day problems, especially during “that time of the month” or when we lament the mosquitos and gnats, we tend to curse Eve and Adam... Does it escape our attention that sin had already … Continue reading Idle Thoughts

Yesterday was a struggle. I just wanted to curl up and cry...so instead, I decided to find something else on which to focus. I made myself do my dreaded tasks at work. You know the ones you put off until you just have to do them...well, I did them before it was a must. February … Continue reading It’s a Choice

Sometimes, all we need is a little “hovering” support. A gentle reminder we aren’t alone. When I was starting out in the factory, I would often walk into my boss’s office and start with “just agree with me…” before stating my case. I knew I was right; I just needed the confirmation. I didn’t need … Continue reading Hover

I wish I could describe this sensation of feeling like I’ve suffered a decapitation. My head goes in all directions; electrical impulses in haywire connections. The view spins but it doesn’t. The ground draws nearer, but it isn’t. I stop, pause for a second, to make sure I’m still connected. I cautiously examine around me; … Continue reading This Sensation

The past few years have been a roller coaster for me. Most of it seemed to be upside down hurling to the ground as fast as possible...never seeming to level. Funny to think about it that way, but that is how it was.  The last half of last year was horrible.  I know 2020 was … Continue reading I Get It