They say the grass isn't always greener on the other side. And I do believe, somehow, they got it right. I’ve also heard something to the effect of “the devil you know…” as opposed to what is unknown. And again, I think there is truth in that also. So which is it? Which is the … Continue reading Greener

So I was thinking about a response from one of my earlier posts… And the comment was about relationships and how we spend time with those relationships and it really got me thinking we spend so much time on negative things how we miss out on so much good. I realized that the things I … Continue reading Negative Relationships

It makes it real, doesn't it... I mean you know you have a problem, but when the tests are scheduled... It makes it real. And you really don't want it to be real. You spend your life ignoring the signs. Because you know more than what the signs show. You know that sometimes signs are … Continue reading Real or Not Real?

Sometimes I wonder if we dream things for a reason… I awoke this morning to a sound that I had heard earlier in the night… a sound that never happened… It was a notification… An email, to be exact.  But I had my phone on “do not disturb”.  Not only that, but I never received … Continue reading Wonderings…

Sometimes all we need is a shoulder to lean on so we can let go of the weight we carry. I saw a young lady lay her head on the shoulder and wrap her arm around her husband’s mother. I don’t know why it affected me the way it did; I couldn’t catch the tears, … Continue reading Shoulder

It works both ways. You can't sit there and feel sorry for yourself because no one ever calls or texts to check on you. You have to make an effort too. You have to give some love away to get any love back. And yeah, there are some people who will do anything for you...but … Continue reading Don’t Listen

“The mind is a powerful place"1 (NF The Search) I hear you. The mind is powerful and scary. I'm battling my mind right now. It is telling me that I need to revert to coping mechanisms that I've used for decades...and I don't want to do that. So am I weak if I need to … Continue reading The Mind

Do you ever sit there and trace a line you’ve drawn?Try to conjure up a feeling you have known?Maybe think about the past and want to repeat, Shudder at the thought, but fear it’s meant to be.I don’t understand the pull, the attraction; Why sometimes I feel I am called to action;To plunge into the … Continue reading Darkness

“You're running, aren't you...”It's not a question she's asking.And it hurts you, though youconsider the source. “You’re running, aren’t you…From what I’m not sureBut now I’ve got you”Consider the source. Don’t let them get youYou’re so much stronger After all you’ve been through Consider the source. This is another try toKeep you rooted in placeAnother … Continue reading Consider the Source

You know what sucks? It's having a big sensitive heart. It's giving so much of yourself...and getting nothing in return. Because you forget...not everyone feels or expresses themselves the same way. It's expecting something...when you damn well know your expectations are too high. You set yourself up for a letdown. Stop it. Stop counting on … Continue reading Smallish Vent