I hate wasting time. Now, I can sit quietly with a blank expression on my face, but I promise you I am hard at work. I am constantly planning and writing and dreaming. I can spend hours lost in my thoughts and never feel cheated. But what I hate is when I need to physically … Continue reading Pauses

You wanna talk about anger and how it controls your life? I get so mad at the stupidest things. My blood pressure boils because of things left undone. My blood pressure boils because I can't lose control. I was raised to keep it in, and it's killing me. I can't get mad and truthfully, I … Continue reading Anger

I am insanity personified. Every day I wake and go through my usual routine. And maybe therein lies the problem. I expect things to go different yet I do the exact same thing day in and day out. But, even if I change what I do, everyone else would have to change what they do, … Continue reading Insanity Personified

Sometimes I feel so worthless because of the actions of others. I feel like their choices are a reflection of how they feel about me. When they do something I have asked them not to do, I feel disrespected and disgraced. My feelings forsaken. As Providence has it, a friend will send some encouragement without … Continue reading Providence

Sometimes it seems like the harder we try, the more we give, the further back we are knocked. We push ourselves and to what end? It seems like we are running full speed in quicksand attached to a bungee cord and at any time we are going to be jerked back, and not just to … Continue reading Jerks

I am never going to be enough...I can’t be compared to anyone else because once you do that, once you compare me, you are taking away from who I am. I am not like anyone else you’ll know. I will never judge you or compare you to anyone else. Believe me, I can cut you … Continue reading Enough

We are so quick to judge and slow to forgive. We are quick to point fingers but cannot see our own faults. We forget that another cannot know or hear our thoughts and therefore can take our words and twist them to mean something else. We forget that others have different perspectives and different points … Continue reading Contradictions

It amazes me how fast life creeps by and yet, with all the changes and all the life events, we are still in the same place we were a year ago. I am afraid I am about to go off the deep end here, but...I read something earlier that said "happiness is a choice" and … Continue reading Moments

I need to let it goBefore I lose controlThis has me in a death gripMy life, I feel it slipI don’t even care thoughI need to let it go Just when I think I have itI think I went and grabbed itYeah, I really attacked itI’ve torn, burned and buried itIt comes back and slaps … Continue reading Let It Go

We are constantly bombarded with attacks on all sides. Whether it’s the kids and struggling to get them ready for school or the deadlines we face at work, there’s always something. Let’s not forget the thoughts we have daily where we struggle with our inadequacies and our should haves. It sounds so simple to say … Continue reading Simple Things