It takes courage to step outside your comfort zone, to do something you need to do for you. Don't expect encouragement from others; expect the opposite. Your haters will say things to your face and spread rumors behind your back. They will hope you fail because that would validate the lies they believe.  And you … Continue reading Backspace

Prayer Changes Things. A great friend of mine told me this, and I have it on my desk at work. It's a reminder that my current situation is not my permanent residence. I'm just passing through and with prayer, my path can be made easier. But... Prayer alone will not change my circumstances. I have … Continue reading PCT

Everything that has life moves. Even with solid objects, it is the vibration of the molecules that give shape. Movement is imperceptible by us, but we know that we can add heat, add friction, and the molecules move faster, vibrate at a higher frequency. The solid becomes pliable, the liquid a gas.  The atoms in … Continue reading Vibration

All we have is right now. The past doesn't exist. It is in our minds and affects our decisions, but it does not exist. You learn from the past, own it. You had a bad childhood, fine. Be better. You are not your past. You are. Period. You are what you do right now, this … Continue reading Note To Self:

When we absentmindedly eat while watching a movie, we can really put away some junk food. Think about how fast that popcorn disappears, and wait, what happened to my drink? Before we know it, we've eaten through a whole bag of popcorn and haven't savored one little bite. Whether it's the junk food or the … Continue reading Distractions

I feel like a kid sometimes. I catch myself squeezing my eyes shut as tight as I can and folding myself in a tight little ball either physically or mentally hoping to be removed from the place I'm in, the situation, whatever. Much to my dismay, it doesn't work.  It's like I can will myself … Continue reading It doesn’t work…

I hate wasting time. Now, I can sit quietly with a blank expression on my face, but I promise you I am hard at work. I am constantly planning and writing and dreaming. I can spend hours lost in my thoughts and never feel cheated. But what I hate is when I need to physically … Continue reading Pauses

You wanna talk about anger and how it controls your life? I get so mad at the stupidest things. My blood pressure boils because of things left undone. My blood pressure boils because I can't lose control. I was raised to keep it in, and it's killing me. I can't get mad and truthfully, I … Continue reading Anger

I am insanity personified. Every day I wake and go through my usual routine. And maybe therein lies the problem. I expect things to go different yet I do the exact same thing day in and day out. But, even if I change what I do, everyone else would have to change what they do, … Continue reading Insanity Personified

Sometimes I feel so worthless because of the actions of others. I feel like their choices are a reflection of how they feel about me. When they do something I have asked them not to do, I feel disrespected and disgraced. My feelings forsaken. As Providence has it, a friend will send some encouragement without … Continue reading Providence