Sometimes I wonder if we dream things for a reason… I awoke this morning to a sound that I had heard earlier in the night… a sound that never happened… It was a notification… An email, to be exact.  But I had my phone on “do not disturb”.  Not only that, but I never received … Continue reading Wonderings…

Sometimes all we need is a shoulder to lean on so we can let go of the weight we carry. I saw a young lady lay her head on the shoulder and wrap her arm around her husband’s mother. I don’t know why it affected me the way it did; I couldn’t catch the tears, … Continue reading Shoulder

It works both ways. You can't sit there and feel sorry for yourself because no one ever calls or texts to check on you. You have to make an effort too. You have to give some love away to get any love back. And yeah, there are some people who will do anything for you...but … Continue reading Don’t Listen

“The mind is a powerful place"1 (NF The Search) I hear you. The mind is powerful and scary. I'm battling my mind right now. It is telling me that I need to revert to coping mechanisms that I've used for decades...and I don't want to do that. So am I weak if I need to … Continue reading The Mind

Do you ever sit there and trace a line you’ve drawn?Try to conjure up a feeling you have known?Maybe think about the past and want to repeat, Shudder at the thought, but fear it’s meant to be.I don’t understand the pull, the attraction; Why sometimes I feel I am called to action;To plunge into the … Continue reading Darkness

“You're running, aren't you...”It's not a question she's asking.And it hurts you, though youconsider the source. “You’re running, aren’t you…From what I’m not sureBut now I’ve got you”Consider the source. Don’t let them get youYou’re so much stronger After all you’ve been through Consider the source. This is another try toKeep you rooted in placeAnother … Continue reading Consider the Source

You know what sucks? It's having a big sensitive heart. It's giving so much of yourself...and getting nothing in return. Because you forget...not everyone feels or expresses themselves the same way. It's expecting something...when you damn well know your expectations are too high. You set yourself up for a letdown. Stop it. Stop counting on … Continue reading Smallish Vent

I feel like I'm spiraling out of control. My mind can't stay focusedit's on overload.stimuli coming from every directionlittle noises and voicesdemand my attentionMy neck is pulsing and feeling tightconstricting and restrictingI'm not alrightI just want to feel alive again,going through motionsforeign in my skinMy thoughts are disconnected from mechasm between my mind and bodyI … Continue reading Empty

Just Be Held...gosh the opening lyrics speak so loudly to me right now. I had literally just sat down and opened a new document to write. Plugged in my earbuds and the first words hit hard. Not what I had in mind to write about either... but signs... "Hold it all togetherEverybody needs you strongBut … Continue reading Just Be…

Do you ever feel like everything you do is wrong? It doesn’t matter how hard you try or how much you do, it’s never good? I just feel like everything I touch turns to rust... I feel like everything I try to do falls flat. I’m feeling like a failure right now. And I really … Continue reading Pausing, Not Stopping