I’m a creature of habit. I’ve written plenty that states as much. But lately I’ve made some major changes.... And my habits have had to change... It is so difficult for me to be in a new place. I’ve had to survey the room, And determine who I need to put my defenses up when … Continue reading New Places

The stinging in my eyesTells me I’m not alright. The pressure behind the lids,I know how this ends. I try to change my mind Leave the sadness behind. Thoughts go from this one to another It’s too much on my shoulders. Secrets I’ve sworn to keepAre ripping me at the seams. I just want to … Continue reading Pressure

I picked up a book the other day that I had wanted to read. I carried it around the store for a good while before deciding to put it back down. I really wanted to read the book, but something told me to wait and look into it a little more before making the commitment … Continue reading Perfectly Imperfect

For the longest time, you were everyone I met, and everywhere I went. I could not escape you. Songs playing in the store would make me remember you. I’d see something, think of you and a smile would stop halfway before it turned to pain. I’d have an experience and reach to tell you, only … Continue reading You no longer haunt me

Thump, thumpIn my earsMy heart is racing. Covered Sweat and tearsMy face are tracing. Straight up Twists and turns The trail I’m facing. Quiet, quietIn my mindMy thoughts are pacing.Dig in Find my grindVict’ry embracing.

I fear I’m starting to lose my focus. I’m getting discouraged with all this ruckus. Every day is something new presented I’m confused, (this is so demented.) One day I learned to do it this way. And the next I was told this isn’t the way. So now I’m dumbfounded and stuck between What I … Continue reading I’m Lost

The time we have to shareIsn’t something we control We may scheme and plan and try But it’s not within our hold. And just because we are partedDoesn’t mean we didn’t feelThe bonds we make in lifeCan fill our journey with zeal. Be thankful for the timeWe walked the path together Through good times and … Continue reading Parting

Tone is everything. Tone influences attitude. It is word choice and inflection. A harmless question asked in the wrong tone can elicit an unwanted response. “Trigger” questions/ ”trigger” statements/ ”trigger” responses.  These make the hearer defensive. It causes the blood pressure to rise. Fists to clench, voices to strain. On the flip side, an insult … Continue reading Tone

How fast things change Yet how much they stay the same. The past few years I feel like I’m still there Like nothing has changed, But in truth, so much is different. On the outside looking in, You can’t see the change. At least not at first. But looking closer, you can see Just how … Continue reading Steady as You Go