Let You Down

My biggest fear is disappointing others.

I am human and prone to anger, prone to mistakes. I will let you down.

And for that, I am truly sorry.

I think we all to some degree feel like we have control over our lives and our capabilities. I think we tend to put more on our plates than we can handle because we expect more of ourselves…and when we can’t do it all, we feel like we’ve failed.

But we keep going.

And we sometimes keep adding more to our load.


We are drowning, stretched so thin, with no relief in sight, yet we keep doing more, keep adding more, keep struggling to keep going.

We make ourselves sick with worry and stress.

We got this.

We can do everything.

Philippians 4:13- I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. (KJV)

It says ‘all things’, not everything.

We can’t do everything. There’s nothing we can’t do through CHRIST, but HE didn’t say that we can do everything by ourselves.

We don’t ask for help.

Not really.

We say we ask GOD, but do we ask others to lend a hand when we need it?

We’re the first to offer help to others who are struggling, but it doesn’t make us weak to ask for help to catch up.

We need to take time for ourselves or we’ll burn out. We’ll get so sick that we must ask for help…or worse, not be able to do for ourselves.

I’ve seen that first hand.

I watched someone dear to me, who never asked for help, never accepted help, become helpless and in need of assistance doing the basic daily routines like bathing, eating and getting dressed. This person who could at one time run circles around me, be struck down by disease because she worked instead of taking care of herself. She never said ‘no’ to more work.

She’s gone now, but she left some lessons for me if I can learn them.

Every day I learn something new from her. And every time I post here, I’m reminded of lessons she’s still teaching me.

So, learn from her.

We can’t keep up this pace and live to see our grandchildren grow.

And I, for one, want to see my grandchildren and great-grandchildren.

At the rate I’m going, that’s not going to happen.

We work as if for the LORD. We give are all for HIM and by HIS example.

But we are not made to do it all. There may be nothing we can’t do, but if we stretch ourselves so thin, we are not giving our all.

We will make more mistakes.

We will slack in one area to improve another and repeat that cycle.

We will live for work and not live for CHRIST.

This is my struggle.

I will let you down, while trying to juggle everything.

Because while I can do anything, I’m only as good as the time I can spend on each thing. And if I have too much to do, I can’t give as much attention to the details as I need; mistakes will happen and I’ll have to spend more time I don’t have correcting my problems.

It’s like everything else in life, what we focus on affects everything. We need to focus.

2 thoughts on “Let You Down

  1. Someone told me we always think of modesty as being free from pride or showiness, but it also means limited or moderate in amount. As humans, this means we have a limited amount of power, time, resources, etc. that we can give. So when we take on too many things and don’t ask for help, we are showing a lack of modesty because we are not acknowledging our limits. I had never thought about it that way. When I mentioned that people get upset when we don’t help them, he said, “If God tells us no sometimes and he doesn’t have limits, you have the right to say no and not feel guilty.”

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    1. I like this point of view. Calling it modesty. Usually when I hear, “oh, you’re just being modest…” I think as opposed to being boastful.
      As I said, I can do anything. It may take time for me to do or learn some things, but I believe that I can do anything that I put my mind to doing. But that’s not being boastful because I believe anyone can do anything if they truly want to do it. I’m sorry, I digress, so I like to think of modesty as being aware of limitations…we are limited by being human, for one, and time, mental constraints… we are not machines. We tire; we exhaust our bodies and our minds, so taking on a moderate amount of a workload is sufficient.
      I had a friend who said ‘everything in moderation’ and I do believe that when we overindulge in anything, we have consequences.
      Thank you for this line of thought!

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