Let You Down

My biggest fear is disappointing others.

I am human and prone to anger, prone to mistakes. I will let you down.

And for that, I am truly sorry.

I think we all to some degree feel like we have control over our lives and our capabilities. I think we tend to put more on our plates than we can handle because we expect more of ourselves…and when we can’t do it all, we feel like we’ve failed.

But we keep going.

And we sometimes keep adding more to our load.

Why?

We are drowning, stretched so thin, with no relief in sight, yet we keep doing more, keep adding more, keep struggling to keep going.

We make ourselves sick with worry and stress.

We got this.

We can do everything.

Philippians 4:13- I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. (KJV)

It says ‘all things’, not everything.

We can’t do everything. There’s nothing we can’t do through CHRIST, but HE didn’t say that we can do everything by ourselves.

We don’t ask for help.

Not really.

We say we ask GOD, but do we ask others to lend a hand when we need it?

We’re the first to offer help to others who are struggling, but it doesn’t make us weak to ask for help to catch up.

We need to take time for ourselves or we’ll burn out. We’ll get so sick that we must ask for help…or worse, not be able to do for ourselves.

I’ve seen that first hand.

I watched someone dear to me, who never asked for help, never accepted help, become helpless and in need of assistance doing the basic daily routines like bathing, eating and getting dressed. This person who could at one time run circles around me, be struck down by disease because she worked instead of taking care of herself. She never said ‘no’ to more work.

She’s gone now, but she left some lessons for me if I can learn them.

Every day I learn something new from her. And every time I post here, I’m reminded of lessons she’s still teaching me.

So, learn from her.

We can’t keep up this pace and live to see our grandchildren grow.

And I, for one, want to see my grandchildren and great-grandchildren.

At the rate I’m going, that’s not going to happen.

We work as if for the LORD. We give are all for HIM and by HIS example.

But we are not made to do it all. There may be nothing we can’t do, but if we stretch ourselves so thin, we are not giving our all.

We will make more mistakes.

We will slack in one area to improve another and repeat that cycle.

We will live for work and not live for CHRIST.

This is my struggle.

I will let you down, while trying to juggle everything.

Because while I can do anything, I’m only as good as the time I can spend on each thing. And if I have too much to do, I can’t give as much attention to the details as I need; mistakes will happen and I’ll have to spend more time I don’t have correcting my problems.

It’s like everything else in life, what we focus on affects everything. We need to focus.