Enough

Do you ever just get tired…I mean like tired of everything? 

Like I don’t want to die…

Isn’t that a line from NF… “i don’t wanna die, i just wanna get relief”

But I feel like that from time to time. I just want to quit…

I just want to lay down…

Not to die, but to get some rest.

I’m tired. 

I’m tired of hurting and trying to hide the pain. 

I’m just tired.

And I want relief. 

I think if I could lay for a while, maybe I could get some relief…

But I would have to be asleep…like a deep sleep…

Because I hurt when I lay down.

It never leaves me…

It’s always there, hovering…

This nagging pain that won’t go away. 

And I push through it as much as I can…

But sometimes, it stops me in my tracks and tears fall. 

I hate it. 

It’s the dull aches that wear you down. 

You know, it’s like they say “a million little things”, that sometimes come to a head and it is enough to say “enough”. 

I’ve had enough for now. 

I need to feel whole again, and painfree again. 

I don’t know the last time I didn’t hurt…

But this isn’t going to stop me. 

I’m going to keep on fighting…

I have too much to give in and too much more to do to give up.