I’d read something somewhere… It was instructions for how to do something, like bicep curls, or something similar. Maybe it was a video… I’m not sure the format, but the point was to go slow. Well, that doesn’t work for me. I get my workouts in where I can and to get the reps, I … Continue reading Processes
Tag: #struggle
Late Night
I read somewhere that people shouldn’t talk about their healing process. That recovery should be done quietly. I guess I understand on some levels where that would be beneficial. You don’t discuss your plans, you just do them. When you want to get ahead at work, you do it, you don’t tell everyone what you’re … Continue reading Late Night
New Wine
New wine…we ask God to make us new wine; a new life with new meaning, part of His vine, a branch to bring forth new fruit. Oh, but at the pain we face when being made into new wine. We must be crushed in the press. Left to ferment, uncared for by natural eyes. We … Continue reading New Wine
Unclear
Empty, hollow, Like a never ending echo,Reverberating off the walls; Indistinct and unclear.Head pulsating,Rhythmic and methodical beats,Vision dancing at rapid speed Indistinct and unclear. Shake this feeling,I can’t seem to make it through this,My life is quickly becoming Indistinct and unclear.
Eggshells
I don’t feel like I’m walking on eggshells,It feels like busted ass glassLike spider-webbing beneath mePopping, ready to crash. I don’t feel like I’m walking on eggshells I feel like I’m walking on glassToeing the line, trying to findA sure place, a steady path. I don’t feel like I’m walking on eggshells It’s like glass that’s shattered but thereThe … Continue reading Eggshells
A Delight
“And Samuel said, Hath the LORD as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the LORD? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams. For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast … Continue reading A Delight
This Cup
”saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.“ Luke 22:42 KJV I’m in a bit of a place, and have been for a while now. My thoughts have been on this bitterness I’ve been drinking, begging for it to be removed. Or perhaps for … Continue reading This Cup
Struggling
This isn’t my usual thing, but needed to take a second and get this out. Gosh, I feel like I am rotting away. I know I am full of sin; I fear my heart isn’t always where it should be. But my flesh is literally rotting before my eyes. I’m not alone in this struggle … Continue reading Struggling
Depression
It’s a lump in your throat (Well, maybe just where it starts)That plummets to your gutAnd back up to your heart. Like you swallowed something Something bitter and vileAnd you just want to purgeAnd you spit out bile. No matter how much you heaveHow much comes outThat lump is still there Growing bigger, no doubt. … Continue reading Depression
Recap
When I first started writing this blog, I posted multiple times each week. Sometimes more than once a day. There was always something on my mind. I was always excited and anxious to post; thinking the more I put out there, the better I would become. Later, I realized I needed to pace myself. I … Continue reading Recap
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