Empty, hollow, Like a never ending echo,Reverberating off the walls; Indistinct and unclear.Head pulsating,Rhythmic and methodical beats,Vision dancing at rapid speed Indistinct and unclear. Shake this feeling,I can’t seem to make it through this,My life is quickly becoming Indistinct and unclear.
Tag: #struggle
Eggshells
I don’t feel like I’m walking on eggshells,It feels like busted ass glassLike spider-webbing beneath mePopping, ready to crash. I don’t feel like I’m walking on eggshells I feel like I’m walking on glassToeing the line, trying to findA sure place, a steady path. I don’t feel like I’m walking on eggshells It’s like glass that’s shattered but thereThe … Continue reading Eggshells
A Delight
“And Samuel said, Hath the LORD as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the LORD? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams. For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast … Continue reading A Delight
This Cup
”saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.“ Luke 22:42 KJV I’m in a bit of a place, and have been for a while now. My thoughts have been on this bitterness I’ve been drinking, begging for it to be removed. Or perhaps for … Continue reading This Cup
Struggling
This isn’t my usual thing, but needed to take a second and get this out. Gosh, I feel like I am rotting away. I know I am full of sin; I fear my heart isn’t always where it should be. But my flesh is literally rotting before my eyes. I’m not alone in this struggle … Continue reading Struggling
Depression
It’s a lump in your throat (Well, maybe just where it starts)That plummets to your gutAnd back up to your heart. Like you swallowed something Something bitter and vileAnd you just want to purgeAnd you spit out bile. No matter how much you heaveHow much comes outThat lump is still there Growing bigger, no doubt. … Continue reading Depression
Recap
When I first started writing this blog, I posted multiple times each week. Sometimes more than once a day. There was always something on my mind. I was always excited and anxious to post; thinking the more I put out there, the better I would become. Later, I realized I needed to pace myself. I … Continue reading Recap
Forget
No, I didn’t forget. How could I?But I don't regret Letting it pass byWithout saying anything. I bowed my head. Said a prayer. Words left unsaid Add another layer To the space between us.
It’s Time
My Mom has ridden everywhere with me for the past 16 years…well, her picture has. She has been a constant through vehicle changes, life changes; she’s seen it all…well, her picture has. Last week, she disappeared. I don’t know what happened. I know she’s been finicky lately…she hasn’t been staying in her seat; she’s been … Continue reading It’s Time
Crashing
My body is shaking Tremors run throughout My eyesight is fadingBurning in a drought My heartbeat is racingWorried it’ll just give outMy lungs are exploding Forcing air in n out My mind is spinningHamster wheel in motion Each nerve is tingling ‘lectric waves, churning oceanMy ears are ringingA deafening explosionCan’t shake this feeling Too intense … Continue reading Crashing
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