I exhale slowly,Focusing on the task,Of taking in air,Hold it, then relax. The exhale gets me,Sometimes i forgetTo just let it goSo I can reset. I’m lying to you. The exhale isn’t slow,By violence is forced;I have no control. A fist to the gut,A vacuumed sealed room:The exhale ripped,An impending doom. I can’t do this,I continue to say,As I exhale … Continue reading Exhale
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Why, Man
You know I’m hurting. I told you I was on the edge.What? You say “I’m sorry”,And leave me on the ledge. What the hell, man,I thought you were hereBut now I see, they’re wordsEmpty sounds for me to hear. I’m in pain, man,I feel like I’m dying. I wish I was dead, man,What? You think I’m lying?You haven’t checked … Continue reading Why, Man
Inside
I used to think I was dead inside But I know I have a fire inside Fueled by an endless supply inside Of dreams and hopes and desires inside Things that come alive inside Awake all my senses inside Keeping me aware, not hiding inside Not dimming my flame or life inside Shining through, smiling … Continue reading Inside
Knowing
“And he healed many that were sick of divers diseases, and cast out many devils; and suffered not the devils to speak, because they knew him.” Mark 1:34 KJV Anyone can quote scripture. The devil knows the Bible better than most…this is what I find amazing. How many people saw the Son of God and … Continue reading Knowing
Mastermind
Watch me as I orchestrate,A universe of strife and hate. I pull the strings and let them go.Move the pieces along just so,Bending them against their willPushing them further still.I’m subtle in my determination;No inkling my goal is devastation.My puppets are bound by stringsThat to the eye remain unseen.They are completely unaware-They are trapped in my … Continue reading Mastermind
Am I?
Am I?Dear Lord,Am I one of those who is an impostor?Do I?Dear Lord,Do I call on your namein vain?Have I?Dear Lord, Have I blasphemed your precious name?Am I?Dear Lord,Am I forever lostfrom your love and grace?Am I?Dear Lord,Am I guilty of sin,full of shame?Oh Lord,Pardon me. Have mercy on and forgive me. Am I?Dear Lord,I need you,please cover me.
Happier
I’ve had some health scares lately… I’ve been advised that I need to go on a particular medicine, one that many people take. But, I don’t want to do it. Three different specialists have suggested this medication, none consulting the other… Instead of outright agreeing, I have been watching my numbers, and praying… The three … Continue reading Happier
Selfish
I want to be selfish.I want to say what I think and feel.I want to put it all out there and get it off my chest.Damnit, I want to yell.But you know what? I can’t.I can’t say what I think and feel.I can’t get it off my chest. I can’t put it all out there and let … Continue reading Selfish
Face It
It’s hard to face our fears. It’s hard to stand up when we’re under scrutiny. But sometimes, you just need to face it. When Saul was on the road to Damascus, he saw a bright light. I’m sure he tried to turn away from it, but he was blinded. The men with him heard a … Continue reading Face It
Fear
Hello? I’m scaredCan you hear me?Is anyone there? I’ve faced my demonsI’ve looked at deathBut this thing I faceTakes my breath.It’s nameless,I can’t put into wordsFeelings of fear,Shame and hurt. It’s taken reason,Logic, and so much more I’m a shell of the girlI was before. I’m frozen with fear,Paralyzed without,Thoughts can formBut not come out. I can’t moveOr speak,I’ve lost all,I … Continue reading Fear
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