Watch me as I orchestrate,A universe of strife and hate. I pull the strings and let them go.Move the pieces along just so,Bending them against their willPushing them further still.I’m subtle in my determination;No inkling my goal is devastation.My puppets are bound by stringsThat to the eye remain unseen.They are completely unaware-They are trapped in my … Continue reading Mastermind
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Am I?
Am I?Dear Lord,Am I one of those who is an impostor?Do I?Dear Lord,Do I call on your namein vain?Have I?Dear Lord, Have I blasphemed your precious name?Am I?Dear Lord,Am I forever lostfrom your love and grace?Am I?Dear Lord,Am I guilty of sin,full of shame?Oh Lord,Pardon me. Have mercy on and forgive me. Am I?Dear Lord,I need you,please cover me.
Happier
I’ve had some health scares lately… I’ve been advised that I need to go on a particular medicine, one that many people take. But, I don’t want to do it. Three different specialists have suggested this medication, none consulting the other… Instead of outright agreeing, I have been watching my numbers, and praying… The three … Continue reading Happier
Selfish
I want to be selfish.I want to say what I think and feel.I want to put it all out there and get it off my chest.Damnit, I want to yell.But you know what? I can’t.I can’t say what I think and feel.I can’t get it off my chest. I can’t put it all out there and let … Continue reading Selfish
Face It
It’s hard to face our fears. It’s hard to stand up when we’re under scrutiny. But sometimes, you just need to face it. When Saul was on the road to Damascus, he saw a bright light. I’m sure he tried to turn away from it, but he was blinded. The men with him heard a … Continue reading Face It
Fear
Hello? I’m scaredCan you hear me?Is anyone there? I’ve faced my demonsI’ve looked at deathBut this thing I faceTakes my breath.It’s nameless,I can’t put into wordsFeelings of fear,Shame and hurt. It’s taken reason,Logic, and so much more I’m a shell of the girlI was before. I’m frozen with fear,Paralyzed without,Thoughts can formBut not come out. I can’t moveOr speak,I’ve lost all,I … Continue reading Fear
Guilty of All
“For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all.” James 2:10 KJV What a fearful thought! This is the reason I do not like confrontation: I am guilty of part, therefore I am guilty of all. Do you ever stop and think about what you might … Continue reading Guilty of All
Sure
“Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think any thing as of ourselves; but our sufficiency is of God.” 2 Corinthians 3:5 (KJV) When we lay aside the things we think and focus on the things that the Lord says, we can find comfort. Our thoughts are often vain imaginations. We give ourselves far … Continue reading Sure
Sarcasm and Sincerity
Sometimes I worry that my sarcasm and sincerity sound similar. I know they do. I have no doubt about it. And that bothers me to no end. I don’t like it that when I pay someone a compliment it sounds fake. But I don’t mind it when I say something that isn’t the nicest, and … Continue reading Sarcasm and Sincerity
Little Details
Is it the glances passed between people Or the unspoken communication of friends?Perhaps it’s in the words and phrases Etched like lines on our skin. Is it the melody of the morning song,The chorus made amongst the trees,Or maybe the fragrance of the airCarried along by the breeze. Is it a line called to remembranceThat brings a smile to … Continue reading Little Details
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