Lost

Nothing is ‘by chance’. I think of my own life and how every person is carefully placed. Timing and circumstances align just so to orchestrate what seems like random events.  That’s the thing… Our plans and everything we do to try to get ahead or get away are part of a larger plan.  Look at … Continue reading Lost

Am I?

Am I?Dear Lord,Am I one of those who is an impostor?Do I?Dear Lord,Do I call on your namein vain?Have I?Dear Lord, Have I blasphemed your precious name?Am I?Dear Lord,Am I forever lostfrom your love and grace?Am I?Dear Lord,Am I guilty of sin,full of shame?Oh Lord,Pardon me. Have mercy on and forgive me. Am I?Dear Lord,I need you,please cover me. 

Thine

”saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.“ ‭‭Luke‬ ‭22‬:‭42‬ ‭KJV‬‬ I’m in a bit of a place, and have been for a while now. My thoughts have been on this bitterness I’ve been drinking, begging for it to be removed.  Or perhaps for … Continue reading Thine

Happier

I’ve had some health scares lately… I’ve been advised that I need to go on a particular medicine, one that many people take. But, I don’t want to do it.  Three different specialists have suggested this medication, none consulting the other… Instead of outright agreeing, I have been watching my numbers, and praying… The three … Continue reading Happier

Selfish

I want to be selfish.I want to say what I think and feel.I want to put it all out there and get it off my chest.Damnit, I want to yell.But you know what? I can’t.I can’t say what I think and feel.I can’t get it off my chest. I can’t put it all out there and let … Continue reading Selfish

Mercy

We think we have more power than we do.  I know I do… I blame myself for so much… Not being the Mother I should have been… Pushing my children away because of how I speak… But my prayer has always been that the Lord would place my children in the path He has prepared … Continue reading Mercy

The Bird

Earlier today a bird flew into my front door… The door was closed and the bird sadly didn’t make it… I read where birds can become lost in the glass and fly into windows thinking they are heading into more open spaces not knowing they are rushing headfirst into a hard object.  Hmmm… How often … Continue reading The Bird

Surrender

I was reading about Jeremiah warning Zedekiah, telling him what the Lord God had said.  How Jeremiah explained that salvation was in surrender, something the king couldn’t understand.  Zedekiah didn’t surrender; he stayed in Judah waiting on the siege.  And I wondered, do I do the same? Do I try to save face and fear … Continue reading Surrender