I exhale slowly,Focusing on the task,Of taking in air,Hold it, then relax. The exhale gets me,Sometimes i forgetTo just let it goSo I can reset. I’m lying to you. The exhale isn’t slow,By violence is forced;I have no control. A fist to the gut,A vacuumed sealed room:The exhale ripped,An impending doom. I can’t do this,I continue to say,As I exhale … Continue reading Exhale
Why, Man
You know I’m hurting. I told you I was on the edge.What? You say “I’m sorry”,And leave me on the ledge. What the hell, man,I thought you were hereBut now I see, they’re wordsEmpty sounds for me to hear. I’m in pain, man,I feel like I’m dying. I wish I was dead, man,What? You think I’m lying?You haven’t checked … Continue reading Why, Man
My Face
It’s my FACE!I want to yellFurrowed brow Above cold eyes Pale, thin lipsIn a straight line No creasesFrom a smileNo color Or soft edges This is me!I’m not a friend I am meanAnd full of hate Watch your backYou cannot trustA blank stare,Frozen expressionLet me scream It’s just my face!This facade I hide behind Keeps me safeShelters my heartI’m ruthlessOnly I’m notI’m insecure I’m sensitive And this … Continue reading My Face
A Little Off
I keep my Bible beside my chair… Our Church is small but we are a very close group. Not so much geographically, but we all go to each other’s houses regularly and since we are small in number, we are more like family. The other day, we had a little gathering at our house. People … Continue reading A Little Off
Nothing
Nothing on my mind today that can settle into something coherent. Just some thoughts that keep ebbing and flowing from time to time. I was thinking about Faith, Hope and Charity and this feeling I have about those three that cannot be put into words at the moment. I was thinking about ‘Duty’ and how … Continue reading Nothing
Inside
I used to think I was dead inside But I know I have a fire inside Fueled by an endless supply inside Of dreams and hopes and desires inside Things that come alive inside Awake all my senses inside Keeping me aware, not hiding inside Not dimming my flame or life inside Shining through, smiling … Continue reading Inside
Knowing
“And he healed many that were sick of divers diseases, and cast out many devils; and suffered not the devils to speak, because they knew him.” Mark 1:34 KJV Anyone can quote scripture. The devil knows the Bible better than most…this is what I find amazing. How many people saw the Son of God and … Continue reading Knowing
Lowly
I often sit in the background. I prefer to sit behind other people; not because I devalue my self worth, but because of my pride. You see, I am confident in my abilities, but I don’t need to be loud about them. My actions speak far louder than any of my words ever will. I … Continue reading Lowly
Sufficient
“Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think any thing as of ourselves; but our sufficiency is of God.” 2 Corinthians 3:5 (KJV) When we lay aside the things we think and focus on the things that the Lord says, we can find comfort. Daily we face trials and temptations and we often think … Continue reading Sufficient
Mastermind
Watch me as I orchestrate,A universe of strife and hate. I pull the strings and let them go.Move the pieces along just so,Bending them against their willPushing them further still.I’m subtle in my determination;No inkling my goal is devastation.My puppets are bound by stringsThat to the eye remain unseen.They are completely unaware-They are trapped in my … Continue reading Mastermind
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