Blessings

We are surrounded by blessings. Praise God. I’ve been under heavy attack lately from someone but even that person can’t bring me down… I’m overwhelmed with work… My health continues to decline… I’m losing sleep… But praise God, He still showers me with blessings. I’m a work in progress, and I hope I can continue … Continue reading Blessings

Job 14

“Man that is born of a woman Is of few days, and full of trouble. He cometh forth like a flower, and is cut down: He fleeth also as a shadow, and continueth not.” ‭‭Job‬ ‭14‬:‭1‬-‭2‬ ‭KJV‬‬ We have few days on this earth.  Why do we worry so much and strive so much? Not … Continue reading Job 14

A Request

Why do I do this?To myself?Put my heart out there?On a shelf?Just bleed it out?On the page?Bare my mind and soulCenter stage?Everything is nothing.It’s all naught. I’m a shell of a human,An afterthought. See the lines I cut?On my skin?See the lines of pain,Show again?The burn, the shame,Agony?No man, this isn’t that,No pity. I did this for you,By … Continue reading A Request

Exhale

I exhale slowly,Focusing on the task,Of taking in air,Hold it, then relax. The exhale gets me,Sometimes i forgetTo just let it goSo I can reset. I’m lying to you. The exhale isn’t slow,By violence is forced;I have no control. A fist to the gut,A vacuumed sealed room:The exhale ripped,An impending doom. I can’t do this,I continue to say,As I exhale … Continue reading Exhale

Why, Man

You know I’m hurting. I told you I was on the edge.What? You say “I’m sorry”,And leave me on the ledge. What the hell, man,I thought you were hereBut now I see, they’re wordsEmpty sounds for me to hear. I’m in pain, man,I feel like I’m dying. I wish I was dead, man,What? You think I’m lying?You haven’t checked … Continue reading Why, Man

My Face

It’s my FACE!I want to yellFurrowed brow Above cold eyes Pale, thin lipsIn a straight line No creasesFrom a smileNo color Or soft edges This is me!I’m not a friend I am meanAnd full of hate Watch your backYou cannot trustA blank stare,Frozen expressionLet me scream It’s just my face!This facade I hide behind Keeps me safeShelters my heartI’m ruthlessOnly I’m notI’m insecure I’m sensitive And this … Continue reading My Face