I want to take a moment to thank the Lord for His endless mercy. I am undeserving yet He is full of grace. I know my crimes against Him are numerous. I know I am guilty of neglecting Him and turning from Him. I know I was one of those whose actions nailed Him to … Continue reading Take a Moment
Author: oliviaallen
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You Got This
Sometimes you gotta talk your own self off the ledge. I’m gonna sit there with you and I’ll sit there in the dark with you while you’re sitting on the edge, but I can’t talk you down. You can’t count on me like that. I’m right here with you for you. Anytime you need anything, … Continue reading You Got This
A Request
Why do I do this?To myself?Put my heart out there?On a shelf?Just bleed it out?On the page?Bare my mind and soulCenter stage?Everything is nothing.It’s all naught. I’m a shell of a human,An afterthought. See the lines I cut?On my skin?See the lines of pain,Show again?The burn, the shame,Agony?No man, this isn’t that,No pity. I did this for you,By … Continue reading A Request
Exhale
I exhale slowly,Focusing on the task,Of taking in air,Hold it, then relax. The exhale gets me,Sometimes i forgetTo just let it goSo I can reset. I’m lying to you. The exhale isn’t slow,By violence is forced;I have no control. A fist to the gut,A vacuumed sealed room:The exhale ripped,An impending doom. I can’t do this,I continue to say,As I exhale … Continue reading Exhale
Why, Man
You know I’m hurting. I told you I was on the edge.What? You say “I’m sorry”,And leave me on the ledge. What the hell, man,I thought you were hereBut now I see, they’re wordsEmpty sounds for me to hear. I’m in pain, man,I feel like I’m dying. I wish I was dead, man,What? You think I’m lying?You haven’t checked … Continue reading Why, Man
My Face
It’s my FACE!I want to yellFurrowed brow Above cold eyes Pale, thin lipsIn a straight line No creasesFrom a smileNo color Or soft edges This is me!I’m not a friend I am meanAnd full of hate Watch your backYou cannot trustA blank stare,Frozen expressionLet me scream It’s just my face!This facade I hide behind Keeps me safeShelters my heartI’m ruthlessOnly I’m notI’m insecure I’m sensitive And this … Continue reading My Face
A Little Off
I keep my Bible beside my chair… Our Church is small but we are a very close group. Not so much geographically, but we all go to each other’s houses regularly and since we are small in number, we are more like family. The other day, we had a little gathering at our house. People … Continue reading A Little Off
Nothing
Nothing on my mind today that can settle into something coherent. Just some thoughts that keep ebbing and flowing from time to time. I was thinking about Faith, Hope and Charity and this feeling I have about those three that cannot be put into words at the moment. I was thinking about ‘Duty’ and how … Continue reading Nothing
Inside
I used to think I was dead inside But I know I have a fire inside Fueled by an endless supply inside Of dreams and hopes and desires inside Things that come alive inside Awake all my senses inside Keeping me aware, not hiding inside Not dimming my flame or life inside Shining through, smiling … Continue reading Inside
Knowing
“And he healed many that were sick of divers diseases, and cast out many devils; and suffered not the devils to speak, because they knew him.” Mark 1:34 KJV Anyone can quote scripture. The devil knows the Bible better than most…this is what I find amazing. How many people saw the Son of God and … Continue reading Knowing
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