Recap

When I first started writing this blog, I posted multiple times each week. Sometimes more than once a day. 

There was always something on my mind. 

I was always excited and anxious to post; thinking the more I put out there, the better I would become. 

Later, I realized I needed to pace myself. I would burn-out if I continued at that pace. 

So, I started posting twice a week, putting a little space between each post. 

And eventually it became once a week…

I’ve managed to keep that pace going for a good while now. 

But I’ll be honest, the past few months have been pretty rough for me and writing. 

I think it started in May, but it probably just came to a head then; I’m sure I was having difficulty before May…but I’ll just say it started then. 

I got sick: stress from work started taking its toll on me. I couldn’t hold it together, so I fell apart. 

I’ve made some major changes since then. 

I even went back to some old friends, good friends. Some things you can’t go back to, but some things are where you belong. Right now, it just feels right. 

I’m back working where I was when I started writing this blog. There are some changes in the workplace; many new faces and some familiar ones as well. It was like coming home in a way.

My physical health is slowly improving. 

My mental health has ups and downs. It’s a fight, a constant struggle to stay focused on the light. I feel drawn to the darkness within me. There’s a strong pull to let it consume me. 

But I keep fighting that battle. I’m determined to keep fighting. And I know where my help comes from. 

My God is my light and lifeline; He is my rock and salvation. There is no power greater than He. When I feel like falling down, I fall to my knees, lift my hands high and pray to my Lord, my God. 

This blog has chronicled many aspects of life these past few years. I’m not finished yet. I’m still learning hard lessons and writing nonsense from time to time. But sometimes it isn’t nonsense, sometimes it is just an emotion that needs to come alive. 

Everyone says that the first step is the hardest one; it is. But take it. Take that step toward your goal. One step at a time; we’re not made to do more than that: we’ll lose our footing if we try. 

Steady on, my friends.